Carpe diem

"There's a time for daring and there's a time for caution, and a wise man understands which is called for." 

-John Keating, Dead Poets Society.

I want to dedicate my first entry to Robin Williams. I never was really an enthusiast and I barely even knew who he was. But through his films, I was given the great privilege to see and experience what he wanted to give to the world. 

My biggest fear in life is to be average. Afraid that my life won't matter. Afraid that my life will fail to make a difference. It's funny and ironic to think this way yet inclined to do otherwise. I never really wanted to do anything extraordinary in my life, even the thought of being "great" at something is quick to make me retreat to the darkest place I regard: my comfort zone. And blogging? Crossed my mind, intentions seemed right, inspiration was not lacking, but fear is paralyzing. 

I never really wanted or even dreamed of being a writer. I presumed that pouring a lot of yourself into something such as writing is more of an act of vanity rather than an endeavor. I was led to believe that those who pursue greatness only wanted to do great things because they assumed something in return, which is prominence. Don't get me wrong, I am not against people who strive for greatness, striving itself is considered great. What pestered me is having to know and face the fact that not all who pursue greatness have the right intentions.

So why am I doing this? Believe me, it's a question that will never go away but at the same time it's also a question that reaffirms my intentions. Ernest Hemingway once said, all he wanted to do was write one true sentence. It just so happened that I also share his ambition.

Though I haven't dreamed of becoming a famous writer, I did dream of creating important work. Create something that connects to people and help them as they suffer through the human condition. But as authentic as my intentions are in doing this, I am sadly aware that not all will embrace what I have to impart. But what I do have is hope, that someday, you will see the reason why an average joe seized an opportunity to try and make a difference even in the smallest way he possibly can. And to those who choose to support my advocacy, thank you, because you, in return, fuel my aspiration. Because to be honest, I want to reach an audience. 

As what you are already aware of, I am also a fellow human being. I've already had my fair share of mistakes done and I know that I will continue to make more. I'm not really eager to commit mistakes but I am eager to learn from them. And as I journey, I could only hope for you to join me towards seizing each and every single day. Every struggle, every experience, every change, and every opportunity for growth.